HE LOVES ME...

Million of times, I asked myself about it!
He loves me, he loves me not! He loves me, he loves me not! He loves me...

Yes, he loves me... in a mysterious
way, different way, the way how he want to show it to me. I am just
confused about it. Yes, and doubt is always there... there's always a
questions about everything.

ACCEPTANCE

Explosive

"Kung sumasabog lang ang puso ko, matagal na sigurong nakakalat ang mga LETRA ng pangalan mo!"

This is what I feel now...

I need PEACE OF MIND

I didn't do anything today... I just stay home... I woke up very late. Then Cook a pancake for my brunch. and a black coffee...

It wasn't really working... What i promised to myself for this year, that I am going to be inlove to myself... that I am going to work out on how to gain sef-respect and love myself.

since the new year's eve, I drunk alcohol... everynight. I promised to myself that little by little I'll stop drinking and smoking. but I didn't. It's really an stressing day. pressuring perhaps.

I supposed to go anywhere to look for a new place, because by the end of the month, seriously, I really need to move out from my place now. but I am not moving my fat ass.

Yesterday, I tried. I went to the office, I left my gifts in everybody's table, and planned to go somewhere to look for a new place, but there was a heavy rain dropping like almost two hours. I was so annoyed so I decided just to go home, since i really feel sick since the new year...

I supposed to look for another job, or contact people to ask for a project or a side job, but moron! I am too lazy... and that's makes me more sad.

Am I so Hopeless?

I know I just Miss HIM. I miss HIM so much. But I really need to help myself... I am going deeper and deeper. And I knew it, the more I am hopeless, the more HE doesn't like me anymore.

Tomorrow, I decided to go to the church to pray, for myself. To ask him to guide to the right direction of my life. Then look for a new place after, then contact friends and some bosses, and ask for a job...

I know what I need. I need PEACE OF MIND.

I need to FOCUS, CONCENTRATE, REALIZE things... I am not in a DREAMLAND. I am real. I need to wake up, I need to work hard. I need to move.

Before its too late...

LADY BEE

December 21, 2011

Before HE left the country, HE surprised me with a gift!

A christmas gift.

It's a Lady Bee...

I love it... another pet... i have the LADY BUG already, then MOOO the cow...

Now staring at Lady Bee, made me miss HIM so much...

More than two weeks more to go... before HE come back.

Well, I'm just so thankful to HIM, for the Lady Bee.

I hugged Lady Bee like how I Hug HIM.

I Love You baby...

Thank you for the Lady Bee...

What I want to Write in My PROFILE on 2013

I am passionate by nature, content with beliefs, creative with hobbies, fulfilling with life, athletic with body, romantic with heart, and enjoy living life to the fullest.

Gets pleasure from travel, music, art, athletic activities, gym, technology, learning, good conversation, a quite evening or an active adventure.

Enjoying what life has to offer. Admire compassion, a healthy life style, sharing truth, honesty, random acts of kindness, the outdoors, hot passion; I can be sweet to firm.

Enjoy creating memorable moments with other persons in locations that reveal the reality of the local existence while providing lasting memories. Came to this lifestyle late, however, not into "making up for lost time".

I find men interesting who are confident with self, have a presence in life, are secure with the world they inhabit, are intelligent in the field of their choice, add new meaning to the days and nights that follow for those they encounter, can enjoy an active adventure; whatever that is, or enjoy quiet evenings, enjoy good conversation and laugh along with what life has to offer...

Missing You...

Its the second day that you're away...
I am terribly missing you.
Can't help but apologies for the bad things i did to you. like being arrogant and close minded with things we chatted and all.

I am so sorry my baby... i wanna change next year.. I wanna promise that. please lets restart a new beginning again. give me a chance to have a peaceful life with you again...