MAN IN THE MIRROR

It was so dark... i found myself standing in the center of the room. and i heard something... somebody was there, somebody is crying... and when i look at my back there`s a mirror. i went there, and i saw a man there. he`s staring at me. he is naked and wearing a sad eyes, with tears. his lips is sealed but i still heard the cries... i saw what he want. he`s begging for help. i know... i know he`s suffering for something... that he can`t take it anymore... i didnt say anything... i want to talk but i cant open my mouth, i cant say anything... i tried to move, i tried to touch him tru the mirror, and he tried to touch me the same way i did... and soon our hands touched together, in one blink of my eyes, he`s not there anymore... he`s gone...

and it was 5 oclock in the morning... i was awake... it was just a dream...

AWAKENING

"The voice of the sea is seductive;
never ceasing, whispering, clearing, murmuring,
inviting the soul to wander for a spell in the abysses of solitude;
to lose itself in mazes of inward contemplation.
The voice of the sea speaks to the soul.
The touch of the sea is sensuous, enfolding the body in its soft, close embrace."

I woke up today na punong-puno ng stength ang aking sarili. muli kong pinuno ng mga pangarap ang aking isipan bago ako matulog kagabi at binusog muli ang aking damdamin ng mga dreams na simula pagkabata pa`y kaagapay ko na sa tuwing ako ay matutulog.

mahigit dalawang taon din akong nanahimik. mahigit dalawang taon ding inihimlay ko ang aking sarili sa totoong buhay... sa reality, sa totoong kulay ng mundo, sa tunay na kaligayan...

napakahirap ng kalagayan ko... napakahirap. isang araw, isisiwalat ko rin dito ang aking mga karanasan. ang tunay na salamin ng aking buhay... ako bilang isang lost soul.

magulo, napakagulo ng mundo, ng buhay ko...
kaya sa ngayon iisa lang pangarap ko... ang kalayaan. ang tunay kaligayahan.

WORD OF WISDOM

Smile - It makes a world of difference.
Dance - Who knows when you won't be able to.
Cry - Holding those emotions in is bad for you.
Hug - Helps you and helps another.
Laugh - What's the point in hiding happiness?
Live - because life is everything

23rd monthsary - TODAY

When I look back,

I cry because of the lost memories.

When I look forward,

I cry because I'm scared of what the future might hold.

But right now, with you,

... I'm contented because I know I have you.

I promise you now,

that you will never be hurt again;

i would rather hurt myself 100 times,

than to see you hurt.

... Because every breath I take

proves that I can`t live without you.

mahal kita.

PREPARATION, REALIZATION, CONTENTMENT

PRAYER

"Lord, lay some soul upon my heart,

and love that soul trough me;

and may i nobly do my part

to win that soul for thee."

TODAY...

is another day of challenge... another day of fighting things, finding things, struggling things, walking trough the edge of realization, towards everybody`s goals... happiness. better life. great persona.

i woke up very early. and i saw kevin preparing himself going to his office already. we chitchatted little, things, and matters, that seems its happy day for us.

soon as he left me home, i opened the computer to do things. to face another day, another life. and to to do karisma.

now i am heading to my work. but still, kung ano man ang aking mga pinagdadaanan ngayon... what i can say is, i am still so lucky... i should stop whining about things. though, i don`t have a great life, still, i have a better life.

... thinking that i have KEVIN, i have my complete and happy family, i have suppotive friends and co-workers, i have bestfriends, i supposed not to complain about things, about life... people keep on complaining, because the`re lack of CONTENTMENT.

as of YESTERDAY...

early in the morning, before i left home, some provocations with kevin. sort of fighting because i fall asleep again in the sofa... in the living room... but after few minutes of texting each other, we ended up in a good situation again.

my daily prayer

I am grateful for all my possessions

I can relax knowing that what I've desired is coming to me

I live in the present moment and enjoy it to the fullest

I am awake to the kindness of people toward me

I am grateful that I have the time today to work on my goals

May I have a day full of joy and may I pass my joy to others

I accept all that comes along and work with it

I choose my actions from a place of peace

I attract positive experiences to my life by the day

I am grateful that I can choose my thoughts to bring happiness to myself and others

I feel full of energy to follow my path

Every moment of my life is unique and marvellous

I enjoy my day in harmony and share my harmony with others

My day is full of brilliant moments where what I've wished for manifests

I am grateful I am alive, enjoying this wonderful experience

I attract the exact conditions that I need to become a fuller person.

Think positive... Live Positive...

slow down and live...

if you are working hard to make a living,
never taking time to smell the roses,
now is the time to have faith in life, to think and live a positve life,
and find true happiness before your life`s day closes...

happy 2010!

Most of us has their own new years resulutions. wether they told somebody or they just kept it themselves.This is actually accelerating our pace of life instead of helping us to slowdown... because in the quest for greater produtivity and and efficiency, we over-schedule our days, then rush through meals, drive impatienly, and wonder why the happiness of living eludes us...

this is my first blog for 2010... and i am planning to continue blogging `till the end of my breath...

Its a tiring day for me... because i know, life isn`t that easy... fighting and fighting and fighting for life... and my new years resulution is... to be more positive in life, to be more stronger, to be a good fighter... to grow more... and to attain my goals in life...to believe that whatever i want to be, there`s still time for it.

happiness is always there... sometimes or most of the time its hiding. but i believe its still there. somewhere... we just need to believe and understand the cycle of life.

most of the time i asked him why i need to suffer, why i have sorrows, regrets, disturbances and obstacles in life... why not jus` a plain life... no problem, no tension, no sorrows... but i know that is impossible. this is our life we need to act, we need to live with it.