unexpected

i am not expecting anything...

i just want to give respect to your privacy...

unexpectedly, he called me. asking if i can pick him up in makati. he`s saying his legs is so painful, he want me to take a cab and pick him up in Mandarin Oriental Hotel entrance...

i was in abscbn. just done working out. with iggy and oslec. its not a matter of choice. for me its my obligation, that no matter what he ask me, i need to do it... so I did it. i went to makati. i picked him up. in the cab, we talked about things. things that went to made me upset... made me aggressive. and upset him. we arrived in his place. i said bye to him and i walked to my place.

he texted me saying, thank you for coming and being rude... and i replied saying, i just respecting you. your privacy, you as you...

its really hard for me to understand things. as he said, its me who said "bye". obviously i am waiting for him to invite me to his place. because i really hate it when he said something negative or bad things about me...

but the ending i still went to his place. i brought rice so i can eat his sinigang with rice. and he asked me if i can buy ice cream, so i did it. then we watch tv together.

now he`s peacefully sleeping.

unexpectedly, i am happy now..

i love you

bulag, pipi`t, bingi

wala...

wala na lang akong nakikita.

kahit pa alam kong sinungaling ka. kahit pa alam kong ginagawa mo lang akong tanga. kahit pa alam kong ginagamit mo lang ako, because in some ways, i know you you still love me.

wala...

wala na lang akong sasabihin. kahit meron. kahit gustong mag protesta ng dila ko. kahit gustong umayaw ng damdamin ko. ng isip ko. pero kasi dito sa puso ko, ang isinisigaw, james mahal mo siya, you should understand him. wala, wala akong sasabihin, ang mahalaga, in some ways, i know you love me, as me, as who i am.

wala...

wala na lang akong naririnig.

kahit pa kung makabunganga ka sa akin akala mo napakaliit kong nilalang. kahit pa sa tingin mo ako na ang pinaka inutil na tao sa mundo. kahit pa napakawala kong silbi sa yo. because in some ways i know you still love me. as what i am, as what i have. as what i can.

magbububulag-bulagan na lang.

magpipipi-pipihan na lang.

magbibingi-bingihan nalang.

ang mahalaga mahal kita.

ang mahalaga, in some ways you love me.

ang mahalaga nandiyan ka.

para sa akin.

ang mahalaga nabubuhay pa rin ako ng dahil sayo.

kahit di mo alam kong pano...

ako...

napapasaya mo.

nabubuhay mo.

nabibigyan mo ng pag-asa to live.

to stand.

to have strength.

to fight.

to struggle.

to move forward.

mahal kita and i always will no matter what happen.

you are the one

you are the one

you are the reason of everything

you are my world

you are my breath

you my inspiration

you are my dream

you are the reason of my living

whatever things happen

wherever things happen

to me

its you

you're the reason

of my everything

you are the one

babykoh

kevin viard

thank you

thank you...

for last night

of the text...

to go to your place

for the trust...

of shaving your body

for the sinigang...

that so delicious

for the medicine...

to cure my fever

for the PC...

for me to view the scripts

my facebook games

and check my emails

and most specially

thank you

for the bed we shared

and hugged through the night

and the kiss

before i leave your place

this morning...

i hope you know

how you made me happy

mahal kita

and i always will

life is...

life isn`t fair

life is a matter of using things

using matter

using reasons

using unsatisfactorily

using discontentment

using comfortableness

using negativity

life is neglecting

discouraging

annoying

destroying

disturbing

crying

lying

dying

i swear...

I swear to you

on everything I am

and i`ll dedicate to you

all that i have

and i promise you

that i will stand

right by your side

forever

and always

until the day

... I die

as long as we`re alive

I want to live my life

i want a long life

and if it`ll happen

and i`m with you

my life

all my life

i`ll give all my life

to you...

WE ARE ALL ALONE...

woke up late...

feeling bad...

feeling sad...

feeling lonely.

the SWEETEST thing!

This is it!

How a very tiring day...

over night work, then work the whole day, just one message from my babyko, asking how am i doing, all the bad things i feel... gone!

i wanna say thank you... for inspiring me, living this so dramatic life.

i love you.

Once in my Life...

once,
there was a boy...
innocent,
descent,
simple ,
tamed.
dreamed to see the universe
to see the world
the real world...
dreamed to live a life
a beautiful life
with everything...

once,
there was a boy,
dreamed to love...
to be loved
by somebody
by someone
that can bring him in pedestal
i heaven
in paradise

once in my life
i got you
my beloved someone
my one and only...
my inspiration
my heaven
my paradise
my pedestal
my kingdom
my reason of living...

once in my life
i offered myself
to you
to give you everything
my all
my everything
my life
my breath

once in my life
im so thankful
having you...
making me as me
accepting me
the real me
my real color
inspiring me
making me happy
making me smile
feeding me knowledge
about things
about love
about life...
opening my eyes
every morning
to the wold
to the universe

once in my life...
i said to myself
to you
to the world...

"Babyko, My life is Worthless without YOU"

HAPPY 25th Monthsary!

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly...

babykevs… i`m so happy because we’ve come this far. i know that we’re still going to face so many problems but i know we can make it… i trust you so much and i love you so much… i will do my best to be the best boyfriend or husband to you… i just hope that what we’ve been through will make us stronger... i love you and i always will... no matter what...

HAPPINESS!

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

HARD TIME... MY WISH!

wish,
i didn't take a look of your beauty...
wish,
i didn't see your smiles with enchantments....
because,
what i thought,
i'm not going to love you,
but its you, who`ll charmed my little heart...

what should i do...
of this crazy feelings...
just like a wind...
too hard to stop!

wish, you`ll understand,
this crazy heart of mine...
wish, you`ll know,
how much I LOVE YOU...