Paglisan

Goodbye Joseph... Goodbye Insan...

Kung ang buhay ay isang umagang nakangiti
At ikaw ay ang lupang sinusuyo ng bituin
Di mo man silip ang langit
Di mo man silip ito`y nandirito pa rin
Kung ang lahat ay may katapusan
Itong paglalakbay ay makakarating din sa paroroonan
At sa `yong paglisan Ang tanging pabaon ko
Ay pag-ibig
Hmmm

Sa pagbuhos ng ulan Sa haplos ng hangin
Alaala mo ay nakaukit sa pisngi ng langit
Di man umihip ang hangin ahhh
Di man umihip ika`y nandirito pa rin
Kung ang lahat ay may katapusan
Itong paglalakbay ay makakarating din sa paroroonan
At sa `yong paglisan Ang tanging pabaon ko
Ay pag-ibig

Joseph C. Ladic -

may 30 1975 - july 25 2010

you may rest in peace.

not just you...

Pansin mo ba ang pagbabago?
Di matitigan ang iyong mga mata
Tila di na nananabik
Sa iyong yakap at halik
Sana'y malaman mo
Hindi sinasadya
Kung ang nais ko ay maging Malaya

Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nahihirapan
Damdamin ko rin ay naguguluhan
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nababahala
Bulong ng isip wag kang pakawalan
Ngunit puso ko ay kailangan kang iwan

Pansin mo ba ang nararamdaman
Di na tayo magkaintindihan
Tila hindi na maibabalik
Tamis ng yakap at halik
Maaring tama ka lumalamig ang pagsinta
Sana'y malaman mong di ko sinasadya

Di hahayaang habang buhay kang saktan
Di sasayangin ang iyong panahon
Ikaw ay magiging Masaya
Sa yakap at sa piling ng iba

heartaches

Been there, thru a lot of heartaches...... its time to spread my wings and fly high....

I am trying to experience whether there is a grain of reality when I say that existence precedes essence. Maybe I'm just thrown here on Earth to experience this kind of existence, without knowing why I am here for. Or maybe, you can help me define my essence, and bring reason to my existence.

hopeless

When is the last time you said "mahal kita"?
You forgot? I forgot...
Oh well... Its life...
It doesn't matter anyway...
At least, its still our 29th monthsary...
And you weren't there. :(
I was wasted... I was annoyed... I was upset...
So many reasins... So many explainations...
Unccepted, unacceptaple...
"So? So what?"
Its life anyway...
Counted...
You conted everything again...
Again and again...
Now I want to go...
To go away.
So far away...
To forget things.
"So? So what?"
Still...
Mahal kita.
Mahal na mahal kita...
And I always will...
No matter what happen.


-james-

BECAUSE I SAID SO...

We always ask or people always ask why you're like that? or what an attittude...
or our sarcasm, agony, frustrations and disappointments in life always lead us to make people disappointments...

But in our own point of view, we always think we're right, we always think we`re just realistic.

For me... I am for what I am. I talk when need to talk. when things need to be spoken...

if you wanna ask why?

BECAUSE I SAID SO!

Same cases, with anything... with everything...

if you wanna ask why?

its just

BECAUSE I SAID SO!!

missing you

i can't really explain this feeling...

i hate this.

its like i'm dying. can't do anything to think of you.

can't sleep, hoping you're okay... you're doing good.

can't help but pray, and wish that you'll be here with me soon.

and your love... i hope it's still mine.

you know how much i love you.

One week

Sitting here in your living room... I'm thingking what will going to happen to us, tomorrow, you're leaving. Its just 1 week, but 1 week will going to be like 1 year for me. To wait for you. I am not scared of anything. I'm just thingking hope you'll be back soon. Sooner than 1 week. I am going to miss you so much.
I don't need anything from your country, I don't need any material thing. I just want you to take care of yourself, travel safely, and behave. I want you to comeback here, in my country. Just you.
I need you.
I love you.
I will miss you.